I was down to 206.6. Then, then two days later I found myself literally unable to get out of bed. As much as I wanted to, I couldn't.
You see, every once in a while my major back injury flares up for reasons I sometimes cannot figure out. This was one of those times. There is only one thing I can think of that may have caused it, but it seems far fetched. When I have a bad flare up, I am bed ridden. Even trying to reposition my body IN bed hurts so bad that I sometimes cry! Getting up to go to the bathroom, lifting the lid, twisting to wipe (TMI? sorry), standing back up, bending to flush and close the lid....it is pure agony. One of the most painful things to do and regularly causes tears when I'm in a back blues episode. Everything you do, and I mean everything, uses your back! So, everything hurts!
Back blues also means that my house become a MESS and I depend on other people for food. Since I am the only one who cooks (except for certain dishes that hubby makes), this is really difficult. Basically, I don't complain or be picky about what I am eating because at least I am eating. So, in bed for two days. Then had to get up for 4th of July family party. Bad idea. I was feeling a little better, then did that. In bed for two more days. Then was feeling a little better, went to see my aunt who was in town for a few hours, spent the rest of the day in bed. Sunday (one week later), spent the day in bed. Staying in bed for that long is awful. There is only so much TV/movies you can watch!
Anyway, combine the bed rest, poor food, lack of water because I don't want to get up and go to the bathroom, and a holiday in the mix. You end up with what I saw on the scale this morning. Yes, I weighed today, Tuesday, because I haven't weighed in over a week. I needed to see the damage. 212.0! Gained everything I had lost in June! Big sigh....
So far (yesterday) I have spent about 3/4 of the day sitting and the other 1/4 in bed! Great progress. This also means that I was able to get my own breakfast, lunch, and snacks! Still had help for dinner, but it feels great to be making progress. I probably won't be working out this week, but my eating will be much better. Hopefully those pounds will come right off since they were put on so fast.
Moral of this story is: You will have ups and downs, but as long as you keep focused on your goals, realizing life sometimes throws you a curve ball, eventually you will hit that home run! Just keep swinging! (As I typed that I thought about Dory in Finding Nemo singing, Just keep swimming.)
Oh man, I didn't know you were dealing with back issues to this extent (I'd heard your back bothered you from time to time). It must be especially frustrating to be out of commission when you are so motivated to work out. I injured my knee when I was trying to lose weight and had to stop exercising. I think I actually cried in the doctor's office because--"How can I lose weight now?!" So I just had to be more careful about eating better (ugh! I can make myself exercise no problem---but ask me to watch what I eat? Rrrrr). So that made things more difficult, and it slowed my progress (I am impatient)....but I still got where I wanted to go. So I think you have a great attitude and are totally right...we may get some curve balls, but if we keep swinging, eventually we'll hit that home run. And I believe you will, and I'm looking forward to all your tips and hearing about your journey. I think your blog is going to inspire and motivate me. Thanks (and may your back decide to cooperate sooner than later).
ReplyDeleteThank you, and thanks for checking out the blog! I'd like to know who this is though....somebody I know, right? Anyway, thank you again for your support and checking out the blog. Please keep following and tell others if you find it inspiring.
DeleteI'm so sorry to hear about your back! I hope you feel ten times better soon and are able to get back to your routine! You are awesome and I know you a can do it!!! -Ruth :) (Jason was signed in and I didn't want to bother with figuring out how to sign him out and myself back in since I haven't been on the blog scene in a while!) <3
ReplyDeleteThank you Ruth! You are so amazing. I'm glad to have your friendship.
DeleteHaha, yes, think of Dory. Just keep swimming, just keep swimming. I love you Spunky! Keep it up, and you're right, there will be curve balls, but you're handling them like a pro! Those pounds will come right off! :D
ReplyDeleteThis was hard to watch! I knew it would set you back, but glad you are still "swimming" LOL. Glad you are feeling a bit better - come back slow so you don't throw yourself back into it. That would be worse. Hang in there - be consistent - you WILL win this race, Angel. It will take a bit longer, but you WILL make your goal! Love you so much - Mom :)
ReplyDeleteI will certainly be coming back slowly! I've been here too often and want to avoid coming back as much as possible. I'm only about 50% right now. Still in a lot of pain, but at least it isn't tear jerking. I'm eating better this week and we'll see what happens. :)
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